on violin
but maybe comfortable from piano
I'm trying to suck it up, but I'm not "great" like other musicians.
You know, I was talented at music playing piano and was in choir. That's what everyone said. I ended up stopping due to other reasons that's not really people's faults you'd think, maybe. It's my responsibility. I'm just confused because I was good at music but also other things, and it's like I didn't know what to do. Well, singing is an instrument and I kept singing but not classical stuff because I stayed in my room and didn't get around to it feeling trapped. So, I can still do music, but I didn't get to do enough. It doesn't mean I'm an invalid as a person. I see music is more acclaimed.
I could have been great. Was I wrong to look into different worthy fields like film acting? I like it because I wanted to be peculiar, someone who does some music, a little ballet, you know? I was into music as early as age 15 for college and the arts at the start and earlier. I didn't really get feedback much, but how could I be sure? I've talked about that, to older people. I was thinking of singing and ballet, but adding singing lessons to see was expensive. Maybe musical theater before.