AGT

Just doing violin.

"This is it! I've had enough" of real nonsense!

No matter how suggestive things get, you can't say no!  So, have fun?

That should sound nice...

Attention Shifts

So, I wonder how people made the older lady happy.  It sure affected my life, I think that's what makes them do it.

"The Dearest and the Best"

I figured out something else big.  People act like they don't care, and then they are mad when something good happens to someone else.  They say it wasn't good enough, but I guess it was the best...

Hurt

I feel like I will be hurt if I disagree.

Me Singing Now

Don't worry, be happy.

That's what people like me are doing.

Duh!

I just see it as I had a wonderful connection and potential continuation in a certain way and people took  it, lying that they do that to anyone as "hot" as Johnny Depp.  They say however much I love is more reason they have the liberty to march in my life like I ^owe^ something.  It's like the older lady ^owes^ me a thank you, but that thank you is a change in if my life is ruined in some way, considering how that normally might go...

So?

So, there's a problem that seems to be reused to feel better, that it's about something I didn't know, already.  I know I was tossed out of convenience in esteem.  The older lady being popular isn't really one of the seven wonders of the world.  Older people today are more popular, and it's just a contest to see if you can get back at the world by making sure others aren't happy, whatever was so conveniently with a flowing reason flung in everyone's face, like putting the world in a trance.

"Man you've got me so uncool. I'm talking so uncool, I'm looking so uncool, I'm acting so uncool."

Like, before I was resting on the idea I was innately a normal, good person.  It was like, oh wouldn't it be cool if we met, what fun I could have, how cool I must have been.

What is this?

I already fantasize wishing her the best in this, like there's something in it she wanted.

I know she liked me in her formal self, but you know these things?  I don't.  People interact older and younger, so that's one part of understanding how anything could have been possible.  I can see it now, I had something reasonable, but people ruined my esteem.

Wanting Parental Figures

I think the older lady I like doesn't admire "what" people do to exploit her and win her attention from me but just the power and popularity they have, the magnitude and size of it.

What is it, it's not good, unless bad can make good.  I saw myself a picture of someone sitting there saying something retarded and being selfish.

Then, you can say you know that there's support behind it for her from older women.  That wasn't there in phase 1.

What about how things were already better before?  I don't even know what that means.