Tuesday, November 6, 2018

Problem

Why do I feel stress around me?

Checking In

I know people will think I am sarcastic, but I'm just dishing out the information and trying to fix things and express what gives me sorrow, like I always feel I already did something to lose deserving anything, like it or not, anyone.

It must be taking the world by storm.

Do you like to feel emotion from music or just judge how long you played and what country you are from?

I think Germany likes Orlando because people here sometimes in some ways seem talentless from losing their bearings moving from somewhere further north to a place without a strong, welcoming culture, like the environment of Hitler.  Orlando might support him, but other places don't let that happen.  Funny, people can't say what the problem is that Hitler had.  He must have just been an animal.  There are many criminals and wars to justify what happened this time.  Criminals usually shun the public.

Why...

Why are people acting like it's my fault I couldn't play violin at 6 when I asked my dad and grandma?

Question

In general, why do people in Germany and Orlando act like I actually bow down to them when I don't?

What happened? Where did everybody go?

I wonder if all the people who adored me and worshiped my musical abilities here in the US still feel the same way.  I can't get anything out of anyone, and people used to come to me.  I tried to fit myself into German classical music, but I can see it would be or partially is too convenient for people with instability issues to say no, just like Orlando where I live now.  I ended up not doing music after moving to Orlando, too.  I thought I might have had something going, at least.

Edit

It's from year 2003.

(continued)

The organist was first I think in arts and crafts, piano, and organ later in life.

Music

This is from the oldest parish in the US in the oldest continuing city and 2nd oldest city in the US, where I lived age 9-11, 1995-1998.  This is from year 2003.



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